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corviduality) wrote2019-10-17 09:35 pm
Steadily approaching Big Brain life.
I'm bored, and the only kind of entertainment I can think of that I think would appeal to me, at this moment, is...doing something...enriching?
...Planning out my schoolwork for next week?
Re-reading Measure for Measure, just because I liked it that much, even though it was school-assigned which normally means that, on principle, I want to avoid it?
Writing something that isn't smut?
Browse wiki articles about Venice?
Reading more Chaucer?
Baking something?
Not just mindlessly searching for Youtube videos I have no actual interest or investment in, or mindlessly browsing pictures of figurines I'm too poor to buy, or just...trying to avoid things that actually interest me because they intimidate me?
Could I in fact be steadily approaching the long-fabled, rarely-reported, "Life I Can Be Proud Of"?
I actually wonder if this sudden surge of energy and motivation, simply has to do with how much I got done today. Scheduled a haircut, looked into repairing my computer, got some feedback on the dog-sitting job...all of my own volition.
I made the calls myself, I took the initiative, I decided these things needed to be done. No consulting with the management needed, except to get the number of the salon.
Hm! Perhaps that list I posted yesterday forced me to really confront those thoughts.
I'm slightly proud of myself. Imagine that. :)
Guess I'll just chill here in the student center for a bit...so, what's that you were saying, Duke Vincentio?
...Planning out my schoolwork for next week?
Re-reading Measure for Measure, just because I liked it that much, even though it was school-assigned which normally means that, on principle, I want to avoid it?
Writing something that isn't smut?
Browse wiki articles about Venice?
Reading more Chaucer?
Baking something?
Not just mindlessly searching for Youtube videos I have no actual interest or investment in, or mindlessly browsing pictures of figurines I'm too poor to buy, or just...trying to avoid things that actually interest me because they intimidate me?
Could I in fact be steadily approaching the long-fabled, rarely-reported, "Life I Can Be Proud Of"?
I actually wonder if this sudden surge of energy and motivation, simply has to do with how much I got done today. Scheduled a haircut, looked into repairing my computer, got some feedback on the dog-sitting job...all of my own volition.
I made the calls myself, I took the initiative, I decided these things needed to be done. No consulting with the management needed, except to get the number of the salon.
Hm! Perhaps that list I posted yesterday forced me to really confront those thoughts.
I'm slightly proud of myself. Imagine that. :)
Guess I'll just chill here in the student center for a bit...so, what's that you were saying, Duke Vincentio?